you know. people that have been in relationships before say that they are a waste of time, or annoying, or theyre just plain stupid and i understand that but do you know how it feels being completely alone for such a long time. like sure there are a few people you are with a little bit but ive never been in a committed relationship and i just feel so lonely. i want that person i can find comfort in that i can share things to that i couldn’t to others. and just lay in bed with and be so happy. i haven’t been able to experience that so when people do say shit about how you dont want to be in a relationship i always think. no… no, you have no idea. i want it so bad. i want to feel that connection and you just don’t understand. you don’t understand how it feels to never have that person. i just want that person. really bad. i haven’t had a relationship all through high school and it is SO lonely sometimes. i hate it. and when someone tells me to find someone and talk to them and see where it goes. i do do that and it’s only lead me to hurt. nothing every works out for me so why would i try. and it’s not like a try to not talk to people. they don’t want me so i dont know what to do anymore. i just want to leave this place right now i guess because i can’t handle the people around me anymore. i need to start over and be my complete self with the people i meet.